Retrospect
Since the start of the year, I have been going through so many changes, both in my personal and professional life. At this point, I want to say that I am happy. It’s a bold statement, I know. And for some people who know me, this is truly a surprise.
On the job front, I have been going through a roller coaster ride with the new responsibilities. But at the end of the day, it has always been the kind of work that I have always wanted. The challenge is there. Suddenly, I am not bored at work. Of course, with the new responsibilities, I have been given enough perks that make me feel appreciated. It’s all good, as they say.
On the personal side, things have been quite unusual. Again, being happy doesn’t mean that I don’t have ups and downs. What makes things interesting these days is that I have come to terms with so many issues that have been plaguing me. I guess, this is what they call wisdom. Normally, I would question everything that’s going on in my life. Most of my questions seemed to get me nowhere. But it seems like all of my worries have been lifted. I feel so much better. I don’t know how to describe it. It just feels good.
Recently, I realized that I have broken my cardinal rule: Never make someone a priority while allowing yourself to be treated as an option. Something happened that woke me up. I realized that I have allowed other people to take advantage of me, to the point of being taken for granted. I thought i was being generous. I thought I was being supportive. I thought I was being a friend.
Once again, I almost lost my identity. I have succumbed to the pressure to be accepted, to be needed, to be wanted, to be loved. Despite all that, I realized that no one really cared much about these things. Friends are friends. They either take you or leave you. I am lucky to have found great friends.
